After a couple of months of these desperate attempts to make my mother love me, to care and inquire, I gave up. I continued to use this method (Bulimia), intermittently along with cutting. It was never about my body image. It was always about feeling dirty inside and out.
""... sexual abuse may initiate a pattern of dealing with emotional distress that brings a high likelihood of bulimia. Young bulimics share both emotional secrecy and profound guilt with many victims of sexual abuse. It is possible that for some patients, this emotional style begins with the abusive experience. This psychological style may be an important focus for psychotherapy."
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